What if one day you woke up. Everything was perfect in your life in every aspect. Then you get the horrifying news that your life, your air was going to be 800 miles away perminently. These are the words I've been regretting to hear for a long time now. Knowing that this person is the one solid rock keeping those words from hitting is a thin rope. Things have been so hard. So hard to go day to day without thinking at the end it could be one of our last days together. I have to be strong,,,for you, because you need the best anyone could give you and you need to be 100% happy. Stability will make that happen and I know right now that's not really an option. The thought scares me more than anything. Knowing that there's that chance distance could set a barrier between our worlds that will slowly grow until nither can get to the other side to escape the darkening corners. Those corners haunt my very being. Numerous dreams have left me in the dark, tear streaked, and alone. Nowhere to look. No one to understand. No one I would even have the strength to burden them with my fears of the what ifs...
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I'd be Lying if I Told You Losing You is Something I can Handle...
What if one day you woke up. Everything was perfect in your life in every aspect. Then you get the horrifying news that your life, your air was going to be 800 miles away perminently. These are the words I've been regretting to hear for a long time now. Knowing that this person is the one solid rock keeping those words from hitting is a thin rope. Things have been so hard. So hard to go day to day without thinking at the end it could be one of our last days together. I have to be strong,,,for you, because you need the best anyone could give you and you need to be 100% happy. Stability will make that happen and I know right now that's not really an option. The thought scares me more than anything. Knowing that there's that chance distance could set a barrier between our worlds that will slowly grow until nither can get to the other side to escape the darkening corners. Those corners haunt my very being. Numerous dreams have left me in the dark, tear streaked, and alone. Nowhere to look. No one to understand. No one I would even have the strength to burden them with my fears of the what ifs...
Sunday, March 8, 2009
No Title was Found
I'm in the dark. No clue how to get out. I feel so much, but can move so little. I don't know what my future holds, or where to go. All I know is I'm not giving up if it kills me. My life means nothing if it's hurting another. So I wander on...looking for that light to guide me where I'm supposed to go. Lift me up and tell me I have strength to conquer the world. Untill then I'll wander aimlessly in the dark abyss loving and living without a clue on if I'm doing it right. 4155 259297 5683 968 263 668 23 25483 9484688 968 34448 844789 663 64 34448 47 78455 843 2378 329 63 69 5433. <3
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About Me
- orangepanda90
- I love to travel and someday I'd like to be able to say I've been everywhere.
Nature is where I like to be, the calm breeze, tall grasses, just the calm silent beauty helps me escape.
I say whats on my mind, so you'll have to deal with my sometimes random frankness.
My life is far from perfect but nobody's is, if they say it is, they're lying to themselves
My family and friends are what I live for and I have a big passion for soccer.
What else can I say? I'm an outgoing, fun, loving, advice-giving person, so give me a your problems and I'm willing to listen. =]